外貌天生有各種殘缺的孩子 也等到了改變她一生的那句話

外貌天生有各種殘缺的孩子也等到了改變她一生的那句話33TheWhisperTest耳語測(cè)試IgrewupknowingIwasdifferent,andIhatedit.Iwasbornwithacleftpalate,andwhenIstartedtogotoschool,myclassmates—whowereconstantlyteasing—madeitcleartomehowImustlooktoothers:alittlegirlwithamisshapenlip,crookednose,lopsidedteeth,andhollowandsomewhatgarbledspeech.Icouldn"tevenblowupaballoonwithoutholdingmynose,andwhenIbenttodrinkfromafountain,thewaterspilledoutofmynose.成長(zhǎng)的過程中，我一直知道自己和別人不一樣，我討厭這樣。我天生唇腭裂，上學(xué)后，那些時(shí)常取笑我的同學(xué)們讓我清楚地看到了別人眼中的自己：一個(gè)嘴唇畸形、鼻子扭曲、牙齒歪斜、講話漏風(fēng)且有些含糊不清的小女孩。要是不捏住鼻子，我甚至連只氣球都吹不起來。當(dāng)我俯身從噴嘴式飲水器喝水時(shí)，水會(huì)從我的鼻孔里漏出來。Whenmyschoolmatesasked,"Whathappenedtoyourlip?"I"dtellthemthatI"dfallenasababyandcutitonapieceofglass.Somehowitseemedmoreacceptabletohavesufferedanaccidentthantohavebeenborndifferent.BytheageofsevenIwasconvincedthatnooneoutsidemyownfamilycouldeverloveme,orevenlikeme.當(dāng)同學(xué)們問起“你的嘴唇怎么啦？”我會(huì)告訴他們我嬰兒時(shí)摔了一跤，嘴唇被玻璃片給割豁了。說因意外所致似乎比說先天異樣更容易被人接受。到了七歲，我已經(jīng)深信，出了家門沒有一個(gè)人會(huì)愛我，甚至都不會(huì)喜歡我。AndthenIenteredthesecondgrade,andMrs.Leonard"sclass.Shewasroundandprettyandfragrant,withshiningbrownhairandwarmdarkeyesthatsmiledevenontherareoccasionswhenhermouthdidn"t.Everyoneadoredher.ButnoonecametolovehermorethanIdid.后來我升入二年級(jí)，進(jìn)了倫納德夫人的班。她身材豐滿，長(zhǎng)相靚麗，渾身散發(fā)著芳香，還有著一頭亮澤的棕發(fā)和一雙熱情的黑眼睛。即便是偶爾嘴上不笑的時(shí)候，她那雙眼睛里也會(huì)流露出微笑。每個(gè)人都喜歡她，但沒人比我更愛她。Thetimecamefortheannual"hearingtests"givenatourschool.Iwasbarelyabletohearanythingoutofoneear,andwasnotabouttorevealyetanotherproblemthatwouldsinglemeoutasdifferent.AndsoIcheated.Ihadlearnedtowatchotherchildrenandraisedmyhandwhentheydidduringgrouptesting.The"whispertest"however,requiredadifferentkindofdeception:Eachchildwouldgotothedooroftheclassroom,turnsideways,closeoneearwithafinger,andtheteacherwouldwhispersomethingfromherdesk,whichthechildwouldrepeat.Thenthesamethingwasdonefortheotherear.Ihaddiscoveredinkindergartenthatnobodycheckedtoseehowtightlytheuntestedearwasbeingcovered,soImerelypretendedtoblockmine.Asusual,Iwaslast,butallthroughthetestingIwonderedwhatMrs.Leonardmightsaytome.Iknewfrompreviousyearsthatshewhisperedthingslike"Theskyisblue"or"Doyouhavenewshoes?"學(xué)校一年一度的“耳語測(cè)試”時(shí)間到了。我有一只耳朵幾乎聽不見任何聲音，但我不打算暴露又一個(gè)會(huì)使自己被歸為異類的問題。所以我作弊了。在集體測(cè)試中，我學(xué)會(huì)了觀察其他孩子的動(dòng)作，當(dāng)他們舉手時(shí)，我也跟著舉起手。然而“耳語測(cè)試”卻需要另一種完全不同的騙術(shù)：每個(gè)孩子都要走到教室門口，側(cè)過身，用手指堵住一只耳朵，然后老師在她桌子的位置輕聲細(xì)語，再讓孩子復(fù)述。另一只耳朵也要同樣來一遍。早在上幼兒園的時(shí)候，我就發(fā)現(xiàn)其實(shí)沒有人會(huì)檢查你該捂住的那只耳朵捂得有多嚴(yán)實(shí)，因此我只是假裝堵住了自己的耳朵。和往常一樣，我是最后一個(gè)。但在整個(gè)測(cè)試期間我都在琢磨倫納德夫人可能會(huì)對(duì)我說些什么。我打探到前幾年她低語的都是“天空是藍(lán)色的”或者“你有新鞋子么？”之類的話。Myturncameup.Iturnedmybadeartoherplugginguptheothersolidlywithmyfinger,thengentlybackedmyfingeroutenoughtobeabletohear.Iwaitedandthenheardthewordsthatchangedmylifeforever.Mrs.Leonard,thepretty,fragrantteacherIadored,saidsoftly,"Iwishyouwere